Hollow Pewter

Venus Flytrap

I'm eating a chocolate vagina right now. Yeah, I said it. It's wonderful. Went to Mtl with the bitties last week, it was sort of a bust, didn't buy much, and we all got a bit riled up at eachother (or more like everyone got riled up and took it out on me) bleh. It was fun for the most part though.
Jacob jeans ($7 VV), black Garage tank top, black and white patterened sheer dress (Gabby's), studded bracelet, Seiko watch, grey slouchy booties ($60 Aldo).

Meeting Peyton

So I met my beautiful second-cousin yesterday for the first time. Her name is Peyton and she's so gorgeous. I have baby fever, almost cried when she went to bed, I just wanted to take her home with me she isliterally THAT cute.

Other (not nearly as) exciting news is I learned how to use a sewing machine! And I sewed this dress, it was a floor length one from Value Village ($8) so I chopped it off and hemmed it. The hem is magnificently uneven but that's okay. I'm wearing it with KP's leather belt and my mauve platform wedges ($20 Taget)

Sunday Funday

Sunday's are so weird, they are the Gatsby of all weekdays, they have everything and nothing at the same time (my man said the same thing about Gatsby). They are perfect because they are a weekday, no one works, they call for ceasar's, big family dinners and early relaxing evenings, but they also suck man dick because you know in less than 24 hours you'll be stuck at your shitty job again (and someone once said "If you love your job you've never worked a day in your life"), you get bored because everything is closed, and then you drink too much, have no plans, take your pants off and lie in bed putting on red lipstick and taking pictures of yourself because you're a drunk narcissist.
I want to shave some of my hair off ...

Feathers and Wood

Yesterday KP and I went to a furniture store then wreaked havoc in Homesense (but we had to go to the far away Homesense lest we become too enticed by the close one that is in conjunction with Winners ... oh fairly priced designer handbags are my true love). Anyways, it was hilarious, we both just went nuts picking tons of crap to decorate the new credenza thingy from my Grandma's house that now lives in our family room. We bought a ton of stuff but what we kept was a stunning sparkly feather and twig display in a vase (that I'll take credit for), an amazing copper-ish glass lamp with a linen lampshade (again I'll take the credit for that one) and a huuuuuge black and greenish-grey plate (KP won for that one). (Final score, BK: 2, KP:1).
Back to the outfit, I wore this on my date with Becky and Sylvia to the museum of Nature.
Black and white patterened sleeveless top (KP's closet), mauve tulip skirt ($10 Urban Outfitters), black American Eagle flats vs. mauve platform sandals ($20 Target), and KP's camel wide leather belt vs. braided leather men's belt.

Boxcar Racer

Boxcar racer is such an awesome band, (Letters to God ... ill fuckin song) I used to be so into them, and I probably haven't listened to them in a year, but they just came on my shuffle; thanks iPod!!
Beige linen button-down romper ($8 Value Village), Gabby's vintage belt, black canvas and cork wedges (but would also be cute with my canvas wedges no .. too much canvas?), wooden earrings (Ardene).

Feeling Yourself Disintegrate

So I just joined Gilt Groupe .. it's a website that offers designer fashions for mads cheap, and you can find really bomb ass vintage and rare stuff. You have to be "invited" to join though haha, it's such a pretentious crock of shit, but anyways I've got my "membership" now. And they have such amazing clothing, you can honestly find anything, the craziest things! This is going to be so very dangerous for my unemployed wallet.
Black Joe Fresh dress (with pockets .. yes pockets so I can keep my keys, cellphone and tissues in there, and also tampons cuz .. well that's the life of a a girl) $10 Value Village, Gabby's vintage belt, black and cork platform wedges (Payless), leather bag (Winners), wooden earrings ($5 Claires), white plastic flower ring (42 Smart Set).

Lover's Spit

Some days are good, some days are bad, You just have to choose which ones you'll hold on to and which ones you are willing to let go of.
Bare feet (cuz it's summer and I was just running around the house), brown Joe Fresh skirt (which I'm wearing as a tube top dress), brown studded belt from KP ($2 Ardene), orange and brown bracelets ($10 from some store in NYC).

Tears For Fears

Still on an 80's music kick. Last weekend Boy and I had my friend Gabby and her boyfriend Kris over for a pre-drink before we went to a pool hall for Dave's birthday. It was so much fun and it turns out our boys are madly in bro-love for eachother, it's cute they got along so well.
More news, just found out that my office is closing until the middle or end of September .. making me unemployed for more than me and my bank account are comfortable with. Eff, it sucks especially because I'll really have to crack down and make sure I don't dip into my savings account, but the girls and I were planning our annual, summer Montreal shopping trip for right before school. I may not be able to go, which will suck, because it's like a family vacation <3.
Shoes: Beige platform sandals ($20 Target), Paris Blues skinny jeans ($8 Value Village), green tank top (Dynamite), camel crochet sweater ($6 Value Village), Gabby's fabulous vintage belt (that she'll have to pry out of my cold dead hands to get back :P)

Walk Like An Egyptian

Zebra print toe nails!!! I used a fancy paint brush .. may or may not have ruined it. Oops.
Going to the bar with boy tonight!
Went on such a good run this morning, ran to the old folk's home, then back through these back streets. Becky's suggestion. We're trying to eat healthier together, so far that means steak, chocolate and red wine .. oops, I guess last night doesn't count.

Rock n Roll was About Love

I'm turning into my dad. But no seriously, I'm going through my "Eighties Rock" playlist and it really made me think about how rock has changed. It used to be about love, like true love, finding love, making love, losing love, it was so real. I think sometimes we forget about love, we don't appreciate or value it, it downplay love, we forget how dependence upon another person can be a good thing, and we are so proud of ourselves for being independent, professional and successful. I wrote in my diary when I was 14 years old that my ideal future would be to be living, dirt poor, in the country, madly in love with someone, growing my own vegetables and travelling. Was that naive childish innocence, or have I become so caught up in everything else that I've forgotten the power of the thing that was so important to me, that I tattooed the word on my body.

Anyways, I know one thing, I do love clothes :) This is a pink floral, racerback/sippered tank top ($35 Urban Outfitters), Gap jeans (Value Village), beige wedge sandals ($20 Target), pink studded fringe purse ($12 H&M) and turquoise and gold bracelet ($5 Urban Outfitters).

Dock on the Bay

Went to Hilary's cottage with her family and had such a blast. Got mad lost on the way up there, it was a scarring experience. But all in all had a hilarious, shit-show of a weekend with Hil and her fam.
This summer has been bomb, it's almost over but I'm tots satisfied with the whack-ass adventures I have been on.
Today, since it's a civic holiday and most of us don't work, the girls and I are taking a road trip to a beach in Quebec, we're packing a picnic, then on the way home we're going to hit up an SAQ, buy some cheap booze and smokes and find POUTINE!!!! Yumyum <3

Artgasm

Going to an art/burlesque show tonight sponsored by a women's non-profit. I believe proceeds go towards the Coalition for a Sexual Assault Centre on Campus at Carleton. Going with Gabby and Dara after work this evening. Should be exciting, it's like a mix of all the things I love most in the world: art, burlesque, drinks and dim lighting. Woot!
Eugh some jerk is being a miserable ass and killing my buzz over and over, especially when I see I'm being referred to on the world wide web as "a female situation". Mhm get fucked mister.
Anyways, I'm still "running", or as my little bro Christopher said, walking faster than everyone else.

I see the world second, and I get high first

My dad didn't understand this look in the slightest. It was actually quite adorable when KP and I showed him what we got and he just stood there all perplexed.
Green romper (H&M $25), black lace bra ($17 American Apparel), grey shooties ($60 Aldo).
Stud bracelet, carnation ring, white enamel earrings.

NY Haul

After a long ass drive back to our glorious country where I'm allowed to drink freely and happily, KP and I debriefed, went through all our stuff and gaged our success.
I got a whole bunch of good stuff which I will list here :)
Shoes: Mauve peep-toe shoetie with a hidden wedge, (Aldo $60), beige wedge platform sandal (Target $20)
Bottoms: Mauve ruched skirt ($10 Urban Outfitters), green v-neck silk romper (H&M $25)
Tops: Lace tube bra ($17 American Apparel), grey studded dolman sleeve crop top (Urban Outfitters $10), pink floral, racerback zipper top (Urban Outfitters $34), black silk blouse (Anthropologie $70)
Accessories: Pink ruffle boa scarf (Anthropologie $10), turquoise and gold bracelet (Urban Outfitters $5), mauve studded fringe crossbody purse (H&M $13), NARS Roman Holiday Lipstick (Sephora $25), Essie True Love nailpolish (Target $8), Super pink blush (Target $5).
Awesome road-trip & weekend spent with my bestie: Pricele$$

New York Trip 2010!

So KP and I left bright n early Friday morning and drove to Kingston, to hit up Urban Outfitters and American Apparel (worst service ever). Then after an hour or so shopping we drove down to New York. The border took about half an hour to cross, and then we finally got into the Blessed Land of the so-called "Free", where one can get married, procreate, drive a motor vehicle, engage in friendly confrontations with firearms and join the military at very young ages, yet can't have a goddamn ceasar with dinner until they are 21. Eugh that country is right fucked. Anyways it's lovely in many other ways.
So we spent our first day shopping at this huge outdoor outlet mall, where I had no luck but KP found some good things such as white jeans that she's been searching for for everrr. Then we drove to our hotel which was soo gross, it had clearly just been converted from smoking to non-smoking hours before we arrived, and the hallway nearest our room smelled like dead carcass, legit we RACED our asses up and down that hallway with out breath held. Then we went to dinner at Uno, where the food was alright, cheap and quick, but I was denied a damn drink after they id'd me. I was with my mother .. they shouldn't have even id'd me at all! Bastards .. stoopid country.
Then we went to Target, it was nice, then grabbed a bottle of wine and drank it in bed.
In the morning we had a continental "breakfast" at the hotel, not only was it revolting but the people were hilarious, they were all crowded around the food, elbows up just charging along butting in front of others to get to this slop. And while it was disgusting at least we had a good laugh watching them all, crazy 'mericans.
Then, after a quick emergency stop at Starbuck's, the real shopping began at Eastview Mall.

Shaniqua, Where You At?!

Black wrap tank top, blue jeans (Value Village), white studded purse (Value Village), beige canvas wedges (Old Navy).

CRAVING FRIED PICKLES. They are fabulous. Eating them has radically altered my whole perspective on life. I have found the meaning of life. Mmm Fried Pickles. In other embarassing news, I am ashamed to say that I am actually very excited for Season 2 of Jersey Shore to begin. It's terrible, mindless entertainment and nothing good can come from it. But when I'm bored off my ass at work waiting for the clock to say 8:30, I watch it online. I know. Shame on me. And this is why I make minimum wage.

Lost in Rock n Roll

This morning Rolling Stones came on my iPod when it was on shuffle. I forgot how much I love the Stones. They are the epitome of rock n roll. The Rolling Stones concert was also the first "real" concert I ever went to. My mom called me out of class at school and I had no idea why, and she said she'd bought Rolling Stones tickets! Becky and I went with my parents, it was amazing. I remember being SO shocked that people were smoking weed, and I was so worried for them, I thought they'd get caught and they had no idea. Haha, I was such an uneducated little concert go-er.

Jeans (Value Village), grey flower applique top (Charlotte Russe), stud bracelet (Gabby's). Too hot for shoes or accessories!

I Have Seen Rings of Smoke Through The Trees

Feeling out of touch with my friends :( It sucks.
Also I'm very much missing the feeling of having a boyfriend in my life. Not for the sake of having a boyfriend, but simply because it's a guy who has to love you and come see you when you look like shit, a guy who you can call after having a run in the morning and being sore. A guy who you can visit at work and stuff.
Anyways, it's stupid, I guess I'm just going through break-up depression pretty late in the game.
Anyways, speaking of running, today is day 3 of new Brittany's life as a runner. I'm going for really short 15-30 minute jogs around the block, but I'm in terrible condition so I walk for most of it and try to run/jog in intervals.
Today KP came with me and we were out for 40 minutes, it was so great to have some one there to push me to go a bit further. And the feeling of being really sore after a run is awesome, I miss being exhausted and stiff from working out, I haven't felt like this since cheerleading in high school, and I do miss it.

Black tank top (Garage), white chiffon blouse (Winners), jeans (Value Village), black platforms (Spring) brown leather Stone Mountain bag (Winners).

Purple Velvet & Gold Studs

So everyone mocked this monstrosity when I got it but I just love it. Purple velvet and gold studs, how much cooler does it get!! I found the dress at Value Village, it was something like $7, then KP helped me ruche the sides to make it a bit shorter, and also ruched the once HUGE and very square sleeves. The shoes are my black peep-toes from Spring. And the huge stud bracelet is Gabby's.

Kermit Tesoro a la BK

My version of the most beautiful shoes on the face of the earth <3

Enchilada Fail

So last night Becky came over after work and we were going to make enchiladas and have caesar's. The enchiladas turned out horribly, thanks google ... you give terrible recipes! And then we were feeling too sick to drink filling caesars.
It was a huge fail.
I've been super anti-social lately too, idk, why. I guess after the boy and I broke up I went through this 4 month phase of extreme partying, like it was my damn job. I went out every night and on the off chance I wasn't going clubbing or to a bar I was surrounded by friends on some sort of adventure or fun evening.
Now I'm just alone all the time, which is my fault because I've been really avoiding people, but it sucks, I need to recharge my happy batteries, idk how they died so suddenly!
But this weekend will be fun, I'm going to New York with KP, with Daddy's cards ;P to go shopping! It's going to be so fun, and maybe when I get back I will get back into the groove of being a normal human being again.
Let us hope!!!

Find Your Love

I guess I just miss it.

My head looked really gross in this so I had to crop it out. Anyways, I found this huuuuge floor length beauty at Value Village yesterday while I was supposed to be getting a bottle of wine for my parents (it was their 25th anniversary! They were married in 1985, my mom was born in 1966 you do the math, and they STILL are so in love, it's so adorable yet depressingly unrealistic) Anyways, congrats mom and dad! I love you and your relationship is incredibly inspiring, I hope to have what you do some day <3

Back to the dress, it was this huge thing but I loved the print and I loved the button details down the bodice and the frilly neckline. So KP chopped like 18 inches off for me and hemmed it, and now it's fabulous.

Floral dress ($10.99 Value Village), belt ($2 Icing), beige canvas wedges (Old Navy). No accessories, the dress speaks for itself :)

Forget Regret

Freedom through chaotic rebellion.

White boys oxford shirt (Walmart), black and brown vintage belt (Gabriella's lovely closet), green skirt (Smart Set), Black t-strap sandals (Spring).

Body in a Box

On Monday Dara and I went to a City & Colour concert in the Byward, it was free, and although I've heard Dallas Green is a douchebag, it was so awesome. We just jammed out in the pouring rain and listened to beautiful music.
Being in the music scene, even if it is super mainstream, and getting down and dirty with my paints has made me so nostalgic for the past. I cleaned out the box under my bed (yeah it was as horrifying as it sounds) and found my high school LSC warm fuzzies. They were so great to read, it made me miss the past and the person I was back then.
Sometimes I feel like I'm growing backwards instead of forwards, and everything is just spinning so fast I have no idea which way to spin, so I end up either standing still or spinning the wrong way.
Anyways, it's super hot again out, so, even though it's been almost 8 days since I shaved my legs, (reasons why I'm single?) I've got to wear shorts! Blah.

So black city shorts (Suzy Sheir if I remember correctly), white babydoll lace tank (Winners, Seiko watch, hammered silver earrings (Byward market), and my Grandma's gold dog tag (which might be politically incorrect to wear but whatever, I miss her so much).
I think my bra is super obvious under the lacey part of this top but I can't be bothered layering a tank top under it .. too sweaty. Would cause, as Gabriella and Dara would say, "mountain dew".
Also Stone Mountain leather bag (Winners) and black Jesus t-strap sandals (Spring).

Paint through.

Heartbreak. Heartache. Heartfake.
Lose yourself in art.
Build. Break. Rebuild. Break. Learn your lesson.

He said you can't use nihilism to stop a fight.

Eff this ess.

Brown leather fringe vest ($8 Value Village), floral tube top dress (Value Village), brown and black wide belt (Gabby's), white vintage pumps ($8 Value Village), brown leather bag (Winners).

Sweet Little Lies

So Trevor is back! The love of my life/only man besides my daddy who doesn't make me puke is back in Ottawa for a visit! Gabby and I picked him up from the airport yesterday and spent all day doing random wack ass shit. It was awesome, I miss him already and it's only been like 12 hours. Anyways, weather's been so hot, with the humidity it's been in the mid 30's, but feels like 45. SWELTERING.


Black and white dress (Winners), yellow enamel bracelet (kp), white flower ring (Smart Set), white enamel earrings (VV $3). White pumps (Value Village $8)

Cock it and pull it

But I wouldn't feel so alone, everybody must get stoned.

Blue wifebeater dress (Urban Behavior $15), cream vintage dolman sleeve blouse (Value Village).

You Can't Always Get What You Want

And maybe you shouldn't settle for getting what you don't want, it will not satisfy you.

Beige linen esprit dress, newly hemmed (Value), Costa Blanca brown sweater (Value), black pumps, green Versaci wallet.

But I'm wearing Vianni's

I'm wearing a beige t-shirt that is Forever 21 (Value), black pencil skirt ($10 H&M), yellow Vianni gladiator's (Joneve), Seiko watch and gold Alfred Sung chandelier earrings. And now that I've straightened my hair it's raining. Bastards.
Maybe I'll be umbrella chic today? Or wear boots instead? Eughh that ruins the cuteness of yellow kicks :(

Lust

I wish there was a dating website to find shoes. Like you can put in your price range and what you want, if you're looking for long term commitment and comfort, or eye candy, maybe a fling.
I would date these.

Fraud

Is this ever real?

Conformity is the Opiate of the Masses

I hate the fact that everybody expects you to do what "normal people" would do in a certain situation. If you do it, then you are judged for conforming, and if you don't do it then you're judged for rebelling and they all wonder what's wrong with you. It's so exhausting constantly having to defend what you're doing and what you're not doing, so I'm saying fuck it.
I'm done with trying to explain myself, and be sensitive to the status quo and understand other people's side of things. I just really don't care to anymore.
New goal: Do things for you and only you. Love everyone but fuck their opinions. <3

Outfit: American Apparel skirt, black racerback tank top (Winners), black flats (American Eagle), gold necklace (Smart Set), leather bag (Stone Mountain, from Winners).

Worcestershire, Tabasco, Lime

Caesar's are killer. God's second greatest gift.

Anchor.

Got the new ink! My mother almost talked me out of it, but then when I was discussing it with the girl who was going to tattoo me she helped me realize that even though getting it on my wrist is way more of commitment because it's more obvious and harder to hide, it is the spot I really wanted it, and I'd always regret getting it in a lame spot like on my foot or my back instead of where I had envisioned it.
Although I felt bad, what should have been a 5 minute tattoo took about half an hour because I kept making her re-size it, make it smaller, simpler, cleaner and "Daintier". What I ended up with is about half the size that it originally was, and also just a simple outline rather than a fully solid "stamp" type tattoo.
So in conclusion I love it, I think it's adorable, and I have this thing about tattoos becoming sort of like scars. I would never get any of my scars removed or covered up, because they remind me of a certain time and place in my past, and they mark me. Everyone goes through life and acquires more scars, and I think the same is true for tattoos. Even if I look ridiculous when I'm 50 and have an anchor on my wrist, I'll remember when I got it, and how much I loved it and how amazing it looked.
And frankly, our generation is so damn tatted up that we'll all be playing "guess what this tattoo used to be" in the old age homes.

Beautiful Poetry.

Lavendar leather vest ($13 Winners --> Junior's dept. is where it's at!), grey tank top (Costa Blanca $5 Value Village), brown pinstripe bermuda's ($6 Value Village).
Black and cork wedges (Payless) Allan Ginsberg's poem "Howl" the most beautiful poem everrrrrrrr. So lovely it makes me have to crouch down so I don't fall over with the sheer force of fucking amazing literature.