fuck hate

Crime and Punishment

Well another day is half way over and I didn't get a chance to finish all the things I'd written down on my to-do list. Is it a bad omen that I sleep with my to-do list right beside my lemon butter cream hand moisturizer on my night table? Sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night and have a thought about something I need to get done, so it eases my mind when I know that I can just jot it down and get to it in the morning.

God I'm turning into one of those nerdy university students. Sadly I bought a used textbook yesterday, just for funsies ... it looked interesting.

I'm taking this Soc class that's about Women and Health this semester, and it's turned into one of my fav classes, we have amazing group discussions and everyone participates, plus the readings are pretty interesting. Unforutnately it's turned a bit nasty lately though - people are trying to compete with eachother about who "has it worse", and it's turned into a big doctor-bashing party. Now I reject the patriarchal infrastructure of the biomedical model as much as any good feminist and aspiring alternative birth movement activist, but I also think that doctors are invaluable resources (for people who really need them), and I think that, as much as doctors can be patronizing and condescending - we as a society have put them on a pedestal, so naturally we will always be dissappointed by the level of care they offer us.

Now it's my contention that this problem lies within medical education - I think if we educated doctors to be compassionate and active listeners - clients (yeah clients, not patients .. we aren't all sick, we are paying their bills after all) would feel more informed and part of the decision-making process and therefore more cared for.

Anyways, that's my rant of the day, now off to study more Foucault...

Jesus of Suburbia

Babies have gotten so big now, 3 have left the hole and only one is still there and he's all fat and floppy and I love him and worry about him soooo much. Oh motherhood is such a big task.

Anywaysssssss: Blue and white pinstriped button down (VV), black bermuda shorts, red leather belt (The Bay), red leather mary-jane stiletto's (Vianni Couture), Vintage Tribe Leather Roots bag. And faaaaaavourite new red lippy of all time - L'Oreal Paris Colourstay in Blazing Sangria.

Benny and the Jets

So here is my life these days, as a hermit. Studying, painting my nails, drinking wine, thesis thesis thesis. My daddy's birthday (love youuuu) and clothes. Or lack thereof. Seriously on days when all I've done is study I don't even bother getting dressed.

Here's my new Le Chateau bag, half price, got it for $20, skinny jeans, and black and white stripey sweater.

Bunnies

Three baby bunnies are living in our front yard. Little cottontails. Awhh. They are called Flopsie, Mopsie and Dr. Squires.

Today I haven't got class but I'm meeting with Betty-Anne, my thesis supervisor. I'm pretty excited to share my ideas with her as I know she'll have some really important input for me. Other than that I'm going to go blow another couple hundred on some textbooks that I won't read.

Grrreat.

In other news, boyfriend booked his flights to Canada :) We get to spend Christmas and New years together, I'm so excited. Actually we get almost a month, he's going to be sooo sick of me by the end of it :) Can't wait.

Another Brick in the Wall

Tomorrow is the official first day of my last (hopefully) year of school. I'm trippin. On top of taking a full course load, I'm also writing my thesis about women's bodily agency in contrast to state-run disciplinary institutions and how they act in relation to eachother. Meaning the medicalization of the female body embodied through the birthing process and how it can be rebelled against (or not) through the use of midwives and homebirths. Idk where it's going really but, we'll see. It doesn't have to be my best work but I need to pass for sure otherwise my big move won't happen :(

That being said, while I'm crazy nervous I a very very excited to begin my classes this year. It's officially my last time being an undergrad student. And I'll no longer get discounts at Pizza Hut after this year. Haha.

Balls Deep: A Manifesto

Running in the rain in thongs and a maxi skirt is the worst. Your thongs flick up dirt and mud and crap and your white maxi skirt drags around in puddles. It's awful.

And I hafta get my tonsils taken out :( Eww.

White maxi skirt (Value Village), black knotted tank top (Winners), leopard print scarf (Urban Outfitters), chambray button down (Value Village).

Moon River

Butter yellow silk button down (did a bit of a messy diy job on it), $2.50 Value Village, lace bandeau (American Apparel).

Smoke on The Water

Blue pinstriped shorts (Value), white tank top, vintage Armani blazer (Value) , grey shooties (Aldo).

Same outfit + grey Anthropologie cardigan and anchor pendant on silver chain.

Close Your Eyes and I'll Kiss You

While I'm away I'll write home every day.

And I'll send all my loving to you.

Value Village haul :)

Turquoise horse head candle ($3).

Beige maxi skirt ($2.50).

Lambswool sweater ($2.50)

DJ Hi-Tek

Black shift dress (Joe Fresh), crocheted belt (Costa Blanca), anchor pendant on chain.

I needta get my hurr did ...

Twisted Fantasy

VV outing this morning in lieu of hitting the gym. Oops.

Navy and white striped shorts ($8), Volcom grey tank top ($7), turquose bralette ($15 Jacob), anchor pendant (from H) on silver chain (Grandma's).

Dagga Puff

Skinnies from Value, green tank from Jetty Surf, mauve biker vest (Winners), greige suede desert boots ($25 Asos), leather satchel (Roots).

Highlights are desperately needed! Look at those roots!

Rome Wasn't Built in a Day

Inspiration.

Exposed brick

Texture

Canopies

Neutrals

Heavy wood

Intricate prints

Antiques

Handjobs for the holidays

Summer is definitely fading away. A change of seasons was due though, for the changes we have all experienced this past few months. The hot summer sun is a little bit less scorching, and the cool breezes come more often, smelling like crisp grass and campfires. The mosquitos aren't nearly as bad.

Khaki pleated tulip skirt (Calvin Klein $16), white ruched sheer tank (Dynamite $10), silver chain (Gramma's, vintage silver) with anchor pendant (from Hilary). Not sure about the vintage Armani blazer .. I think they beige may not be different enough from the colour of the skirt.

Pink oxford flats ($30 Joneve).

Black ruffled mini (Dynamite $15), grey pearl sweater (KP's closet). Red patent leather mary-jane stilettos (Joneve).

Black ruffled mini (Dynamite), grey cotton blouse (KP's from Old Navy), black peep-toe pumps.

Heaven

Heaven needed a comedian up there so they took another angel. Mark was one of my high school besties and the first boyfriend I ever had who bought me flowers :) He was always a sweetheart, the biggest smile at the party, and could make anybody laugh at any time.

It's under heartbreaking circumstances that we are all together, but our old high school group has completely stuck together and it's like there was never any time or distance between us.

Love Lockdown

Confused about life. I know what I want but you can't have it all and I don't know how to pick and choose but if I refuse to decide I'll end up with nothing.

Fried Limes

I made it a mission of mine to become legit in the kitchen. Which is dreaming pretty damn big seeing as a couple months ago I couldn't defrost a bagel without catching something on fire.

But I've decided this is the yummiest thing I've made lately!

Tilapia pan-seared in coconut oil with fried limes and jalapeno stuffed olives, garnished with fresh coriander and pepper.

Other successful recipes of mine have been:

- Butternut squash and broccoli all chopped up and sauteed with pine nuts with a bit of goat cheese sprinkled on top.

- Homemade baba ganoush: BBQ'd eggplant, blended with 5 cloves of garlic (yeah it burns!), cumin, paprika, onion, sesame seeds, parsley and olive oil. Served hot with fresh celery! Noms.

- Spaghetti zucchini: Literally zucchini chopped up in the shape of spaghetti noodles, dried out for a few hours then sauteed, served with fresh tomato sauce, black olives and extra smelly old parmesan.

- Cucumber, tomato and celery salad with chopped strawberries, walnut and goat cheese and a basic balsamic vinegar and olive oil dressing.

- An egg over easy with sliced avocado and vegemite on a piece of toast (yep I can successfully toast bread now!)

The Beauty Myth

Bare feet

Linen pants

Warm breeze

Coconut milk

French manicure

Anchors

Canary diamond

Rare steak

Grapefruit

D2 perfume

Amputee Barbie

Surf wax

Tie-dye nightgown

Peacock feather

Tiger lillies

Letters in the mail

Enter the Ninja

Outfits:

Orange Aztec floral print pleated skirt ($10 Costa Blanca), navy blue 3/4 length sleeve sweater (Gap).

White maxi dress (Dotti - free from Kat), studded belt (Dynamite $20).

Grey costa Blanca tank, brown pinstriped bermuda shorts, studded cuff bracelet, mauve chiffon braided chain necklace (Lovisa).

Flowers from Boyfriend. Awhh.

Watching a doco "Big Fat Gypsy Wedding" such a crazy, hypersexual, misogynistic culture. Quite interesting though, they seem super traditional and chaste, but the girls dress/dance and appear sooooo trashy, and the men are quite violent towards the women. There's also virtually no education in the communities, especially not for girls.

In other news SHARK WEEK is so soon.